A Very Special Day...

Today is a very special day for a very special daughter! Happy Birthday to our Precious Little Princess!!!

You have the ability to light up a room...your giggle is contagious...your imagination is brilliant...your heart is tender...and you, my dear, are one precious little girl! I love being your Mommy! You melt my heart! I love the way you love the Lord! I love your sensitivity towards others! I love your love for life!!!

Thank you for being my daughter!!!! You truly are a blessing to our family!!!!

Follow Up regarding comments in previous post--

I wrote this out in the comments for the previous post, but decided that I should just enter it as a new post. I wanted to make sure you could all read it.

Heather and Kathy--Thank you for following up with your comments. There is nothing as heartbreaking as having to release our boys. We will forever and ever love them. Given the current circumstances, before the Lord, we can not continue on. I know that He is leading each family in a different path than the other...we will follow Him in this. Is it agonizing...yes! Does it hurt...yes! Do we have peace about it...yes! We are simply following the Lord in this...even when it doesn't make sense. We tried so hard to fight for the boys. We tried to do everything we could, but there was not cooperation from some in our efforts....thus this is the outcome of this nightmare.

1st Anonymous--I know who you are, and I love you! I thank you for believing in this journey and encouraging me along the way. You bring me joy and laughter...even though you are a little cooky! You are true friend...and I think the world of you!

Kimmie--I would absolutely love to come to your house and sip coffee with you from some of your adorable mugs. (I have a thing for coffee mugs) I would rest in the beauty of your barn and enjoy your presence.

Jill--you are such a sweet friend and I thank you so much for standing by me in this. I needed someone to confide in when nothing made sense...you "listened" and prayed. Thank you! I can not tell you how much I admire you. You are a beautiful woman of the Lord and He shines through you.

Trisha--I appreciate your courage in speaking the truth. I can not thank you enough for the sacrifice that you are making for my freedom. I know you are handling this with your husband away at war and my heart hurts for you in that. HUGS!

Joni--Thank you for your love and prayers. I am so sorry that we have to be in this situation together. I appreciate your courage as well.

Courtney--HUGS! I love you and couldn't imagine life without you. I admire your courage. Press on dear friend!!!

Shannon--I can not express how grateful I was for what you did to offer help to us in this. I so wish that could have been the outcome. It was not our choice to make and eventhough we tried, we came against opposition. How true your words are that He is at work!

Sara--thank you for your prayers and support. I can't wait for you to get your daughter.

Beth--you are so sweet! I can't wait for you to get your son! Thank you for your kind words and prayers. You are wonderful!

Essy--you are always so willing to pray us through, and I appreciate that so much in you. Thank you!

Ethel--I would love some of your squash! You have an exquisite garden this year, and I am so proud of you! Thank you for your countless prayers and your steady support. You are wonderful!

To all of you...thank you for your love, support, and prayers. It is because of your prayers that the Lord is sustaining us through this. Have I thought about putting the whole situation into words on my blog...of course. I have formulated it in my mind over and over. It is so confusing that it is hard to put into words, and now there are threats of lawsuits from some if there is continued talk of the truth. We will do what the Lord leads us to do in this. We are working with our social worker on a possible domestic adoption...because we know we are suppose to adopt. We just do not know who or where anymore. We are resting in His Sovereignty. This entire journey has brought us to a place with the Lord that we could not have imagined. Without pain there is not growth...so for that we are grateful for the trials. We are experiencing Christ in a beautiful way. None of this is without reason. He is bringing about good, when there doesn't seem to be any. He is Holy! He is Faithful! He is Sovereign! He is All-Powerful! He is All-Knowing! He is our Comforter! Our Rock! Our Shelter! Our Sustainer! Our Alpha and Omega! He is our Love! He is Everything to me!!!!

When you don't have anything nice to say...

don't say anything at all!!!!!

EVERLASTING GOD!!!!

Do you ever have moments where you are just completely awed by the presence of God? Yesterday I was in the car by myself for an hour. I was traveling a well known, nothing special, same old--same old road. I looked up and out of nowhere I see a small strip of rainbow in the sky. It was vibrant in color and just radiating it's beauty. I looked all around trying to see if I could see anymore of it, but nope...only this small chunk peeking through the clouds just at me. Immediately I felt the presence of God...the rainbow is a sign that He will ALWAYS keep His promises. I have not doubted His Sovereignty in this whole ordeal...nor have I ever felt abandoned or forsaken. I fully believe that we are here by the hand of God...what we do from here, we don't know. We just keep waiting on the Lord. In fact, just last night Matt and I were discussing different plans and Matt's answer was "Wait and See". Anyway, I had the radio on and the song Everlasting God (watch and listen below) came on. It was simply amazing! It was such a breathe of fresh air in the heaviness of my heart. He is right here with us! We are not alone! He is the Defender! He is our Comforter! He gives us strength! He is my EVERLASTING GOD!!!!!!!