Stepping Out of the Boat

So this is the post that I have been dreading writing...because I'm not really sure how to compose it. As you can tell, my heart has been heavy and I haven't been able to post. I will try to shine some light on the situation now. We have come to find out that we have been involved in a web of deception with our adoption facilitator. It has been horrifying and overwhelming. There have been lies upon lies...too many to even count. The bottom line is that the children are not receiving the care that we had been set up to believe. While I can understand evil in this world with adults lying and misbehaving in atrocious ways...I will not ever comprehend how they could do this with the lives of children at stake. Please pray for the children at the orphanage. Our desire above all else is for these kids to be safe. They are innocent in all of this and they don't deserve it. We are doing what we can to be their voice and protect them from further harm. In doing so we have jeopardized the adoption of Juvenson and Esaie. We know that we are being their defender in all of this, and their voice because they don't have one. We know that we are obeying what the Lord has called us to do by being that defender. This isn't the way we had envisioned this playing out, but our ways are not His ways! We have dreamed Isaiah and Elijah into our lives. We have invested a huge chunk of our hearts into them....not only us but the girls have in a huge way. This is another area where I can deal with the pain because unfortunately I have come to understand what an evil world we live in...however our girls have not had to live through this kind of thing before. Together we will press on in the journey the Lord has placed us on. Our hope is in Him Alone! He is their Protector, their Defender, and their Loving Father. He is going to bring good out of this situation...we don't see how right now, but He does. We are covering them in our prayers and will forever hold them in our hearts rather than our arms. We love them and always will!