Whew...what a whirlwind weekend we just had!

It started on Friday late afternoon when we had a talk with our social worker that we had been matched with a baby boy that was due November 9. The b-mom liked our family and things looked like they were progressing well. Some questions remained, but things were going to come together next week. We were excited yet guarded.

Well, Saturday morning I got an early morning call from our social worker...the b-mom's water had broke in the middle of the night and she was in labor. I had already been up for over an hour...laying in bed praying for the b-mom not knowing that was why. I couldn't believe that the Lord had woke me up early to start praying for her. We were suppose to wait for a call to inform us what to do next, but start to make plans to travel. I tried to do as much as we could, but kind of didn't really know what I was suppose to do. Have you ever felt that way?!?! We did not tell the girls anything about this. To them it was just another day...we went to a parade had lunch together at McDonald's. Our attempt at "celebrating" was that we bought the girls Happy Meals as a sort of "secret celebration"!

Our social worker is so great...she called every few hours just to let us know what was going on...which was basically nothing. As the hours went on, I began to feel that the mom was changing her mind. We didn't know if it was that or if she hadn't actually delivered yet. We just sat there waiting for any new information. I had found tickets online for us to book as soon as we were told to. I had laid out clothes to put in a suitcase, and thought through where the girls would go. It was a crazy couple of days.

We went to church today with our cell phone in hand...still waiting for a call. When we came home from church the phone rang and it was our social worker. She explained to me that the mom decided to parent the baby boy. He was born a little bit sick (being he was 5 weeks early) which the social workers believe had a big part in her deciding to parent. The whole time we had just been praying for her, the baby and for the Lord's will to be done.

We rest tonight in His Sovereign will. We know that He will bring our children into our arms...when the time is His perfect time. We feel honored that He brought us into this situation to cover her in prayer when she needed it most. Please continue to pray for this b-mom and baby boy...I don't know much about her. I don't know if she knows the Lord. I do know that in the coming days she will be blessed by our prayers, as will the precious new life that could use our prayers for his strength.

My only regret is that I stayed home yesterday waiting for the call. My plan had been to travel with my sisters to go visit my uncle who is at the end stages of his battle against cancer. I had wanted to go let him and my aunt know how very, very much I love them. For some reason, God wanted me to stay here. Please be praying for my aunt and uncle in these final days. He is in a lot of pain and she is there by his side.

So what next...in my humanness it would be easy to think that this whole adoption thing must not be for us. However, what we are experiencing in the Lord is amazing! I know I say it over and over again...but He is doing a mighty work in us. None of this is for loss. We just keep clinging to Him! On the day that He does place His chosen child into our arms...we will know it is from Him alone, it is in His perfect will! And trust me...that baby will be LOVED ON like you wouldn't believe! :)

I hesitated to share this whole saga with you...however it is part of our journey. And since I have been trying my best to keep it real for you...I decided that it should be shared. For those of you that know us---know our children---please do not talk about this around them. They do not know anything about the events of this weekend. We have decided that we can endure the ups and downs of adoption, but we want to protect them from continued heartache. When we board a plane to go pick up God's chosen child for us...well then, we will tell the girls with great pleasure!