Wouldn't Change a Thing...

Thank you all for your kinds words of support! You all bless me so much! I wanted to make that last post in order to keep our journey experience real for you. The situation with the siblings has been a very real part of our journey. I want to clarify that I didn't want to give up on adoption...I wanted to give up on the waiting part of it! How would that be possible...um, it wouldn't, so I can't give up! :)

The most amazing part in all of the situations that we have been presented with and have not happened is this...as the Lord reveals His will for it to not work out, there is a significant degree of humbleness that the Lord would have chosen us to be the ones to come into the picture to pray these little ones through. In each situation our hearts have become deeply touched by these unknown children (unknown in the latest situations). As it becomes evident that they were not meant for our family, there is a bit of disappointment. But I am surprised that there isn't despair, anger, or "whys". We fully believe in the Sovereignty of God. We know that He is working out His will for our family. The biggest source of anguish in it all was when we lost the boys in Haiti. We lost them because of endless lies and deep deception, and that was hard. It was hard to be so hurt by people that we put our complete trust in. We had invested a lot into their ministry and into those boys. They also ended up with a significant amount of money...not nearly as much as many of the other families have lost but to us in this journey it was still a significant amount. The way that it all went down was very difficult. The way they are carrying on in their ways is still very hard to see. We won't ever fully understand that whole deal, but God does.

Even through all of the ups and downs of this journey...I wouldn't trade any of it for anything! NONE OF IT! I can say this when we don't even have a placement, because of what the Lord is doing in us through it all. I know there are so many people that say they could never do this, but I wish so badly that they just would. This journey of faith has been beyond what words can express. Stepping out of the boat in faith and literally feeling like we are walking on water at times. Matt and I were just talking about it last night and neither of us would change any of this. We said, "ya, we could have had Matt pick up a second job and get that second car that we would love...but really what good would that be?" Nothing in this world can replace having the Lord penetrate your heart and produce things within you that you never thought even possible! We are experiencing Him work miracles! We can see His hand so evidently that it overwhelms us!